September The Dragon

I've neglected this for like 20 days and I think I'm going to start again soon...not like anyone reads it.

it's 4am and I just made coffee...I'm really lonely

Since I'm 13 and live with my mother, I have been grounded for something stupid, I hate being grounded because all my things I love get taken away, the reason this is so bad is that, even though I love to read and play by myself, my life happens to be on the internet so if I have to stay off the internet for a month I'm going to have nothing to do and no one to talk to. 
I'm not the biggest fan of lying in my bed and staring at a wall for most of my day because I've read the same 3 books over and over again and have become bored of them.

I realise because my mother is who she is, she is going to let me use my computer anyway but I mean she is still going to make it so I only have about 30 minutes a day which is the most depressing thing ever, only being able to do things for a certain amount of time makes it so I have to do the important things I have to do first which I hate. 

and not only do I not have anything to do other than use the internet, I also will have to clean the house with her because "I have nothing better to do" I really hate this whole punishment thing.

by the way in case you were wondering, the reason I got grounded is: I didn't get the homework assignments I was supposed to do over march break for the school I'm not even going to anymore... and not only that, I was also a few hours away from the person that could have given me those assignments so there was no way for me to get them anyway. 

I'm really irresponsible about school for some reason, I have tons of projects due in a few days that I haven't even started because I'm lazy and rediculous. I hate school, I feel like school is the main reason I don't like montreal, it's also that I never get to see my best friends that I feel sometimes don't even miss me, I spend so much time missing them and I feel like they only think about me somtimes, I know my best friends (hillary and shaila, ect) miss me a lot but I mean my school friends probably don't care very much. I think about this a lot because I'm really lonely here, and I miss my friends and family so much that I'm really not cool.

sorry I bummed you out.

well... I just remembered I missed a whole week of school and now I have a bunch of homework to do and I don't even know what the homework is because i wasn't there.

I still haven't presented that one french project even though it was due over a month ago.
I'm sure I have a lot of projects I haven't done.

I have no marks for my french oral because I've missed every oral discussion and every oral project....dammit I'm going to fail

Today I'm probably not going to move from this spot.
Tomorrow I'm probably, maybe, most likely going to see my friends who I love oh so much
and the next day imma go get my nails done with the blue haired idiot which will be an adventure. 

but today, I'm not going to move, at all...

I'm neglecting this blog because I'm sick
it's not like anyone reads it anyway.